Lately i don't know why nothing is happening as i want it to be,
things are totally opposite of expected. I am getting irritated as you
have to always solve the problems in front and things are just not under
control.
Still being a woman, i have to keep up with everything
also i have 4 kids at home yes..........2 small 2 big(elders) and hubby
not around official travel u see....
so beginning from morning
something is there for me to create problem, either my kid will refuse
to go to school for no good reason, or i will get an urgent call to
reach for some social work responsibility and then i have to leave all
personal tasks for that.....on top of i broke my car as i am feeling
low. again an elder at home is hospitalized for unidentified prob so
more tests and all that. i am like feeling why on earth things trouble
single women. hubby only talks on phone or sms well that's soothing but
practically only i have to run and things are not in control.
if i
talk to some friend they start delivering lectures on positive thinking
and few will even ask me to do yoga, tell me where to do? in hospital
or while running here and there for different tasks.
i will add i
feel it may be also SAD there's something called seasonal affective
disorder, is it bcoz of that i am feeling low and things are not in
[proper coordination or its me who is incapable? don't know don't have
time to think see just now maid also called and to my fear she is going
for 10 day holiday as some sad demise at her place too.....ufff
so
i have to be maid too, baby sitter, care taker and other endless
duties. i never fear from work but would enjoy doing all if thing are in
well coordination atleast for me. Oh god till when testing times will
continue?